Delusional Dreamscape Of A Crazy Escapist Cat

you wanna be on top?

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 12:45:54 GMT

it was an grusome threesome...last night, there was no bottom in sight as two top guys and one versatile guy (i think that would be me) wrestled each other in bed, it was a dose of role confusion mixed with the fear of having a loose but hole that made me said no (though much poking and rimming had been done but alas!)

"are you top or bottom?" a question asked more frequently "than whats your name" or "did you ever got tested before" ive alwaysed classified myself as a bottom but due to some divine intervention i think its better to be a top
ive heard that power bottoms(who ever thought up of that term?) had diminished wink reflexes on their holes, that no effort is used when dumping thier load on the toilets... well look at the bright side at least you wont have to strain your self while defecating hmm maybe bottoms have less risks of having hernias due to absence of straining in defecation, but have a high risks of developing anal fistulas or "almoranas"

sa tingin kahit gaano ka gwapo o kaganda ang katawan ng isang guy, kapag hinidi kau sexually compatible wala ring mangyayari...

the threesome turned out to be some kind of jerkfest wahehe but it was damn good that what happens when the versa guy has his monthly menstral periods due to complicated arrangements with his fuck buddy!
grrrrr!

Bear Months 115 days to go

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 12:42:38 GMT

its only 115 days to go before xmas
heheh
and its the start of Bear months wahehe it signals the start of x-mas season although its still a long time
this is the time bears prepare for winter hibernation
its also a time for bear copulation
wahah

only 111 days before my birthday im not too elated about it though
but what the heck some people say i already look like im into my 30's
what an insult for a 21 year old

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 12:09:57 GMT

Its been six weeks since i last blogged about anything and im back, i think ill never be able to blog at a regular basis it seems at a point in time my creative juices seem to run out off my head, its like a breeding cycle you cant be fertile all the time or youll end up "tigang" drought cycle going on in there or im just plain lazy to update about everything and ive been thinking over whether continuing this blog is worthwhile,its the things that i come up seem to be senseless but i guess after a few years when i look back it would be all worthwhile its like a time machine bringing me back to in-your-face-silly moments,senseless rantings and bad times that ive been trough this freaking life

A lot of things has happened in the past few weeks it might be ugly but here it goes:

1)Ive lost 2 lbs? hmmm nah thats not really an achievement.
2)I finally trimmed my pubes! kaingin!
3)Someone thought me how to use Torrent hehe ive been downloading like crazy from the most mundane things ,programs, music albums airplane operating manuals and an idiots guide on world domination.
4)Porn addiction was lessened by 50%!
5)Ive been to the 2009 metro manila comic convention yeah hehe.
6)My paranoia in sex has been cured! i feel so fertile, my testosterone are reaching dangerous levels hopefully i wont have body odor.
7)~~I finally learned the truth about some hiv+ issues...about someone~~
8)I got laid! would you believe that!?

a lot of crazier things have happened other than those listed above but ill tell them some other time

scrammble

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 12:04:35 GMT

matgal na since the last time nakakain ako ng scramble
this pinkish cooler made me a bit nostalgic about my childhood
i used to remember back in the old days peddlers usually sell this stuff on bicycles
i really dont have idea how they make it
but i think its just pink food coloring mixed with vannilla dumped into ice
the thing that makes it good is the powdered milk and other topping that they add to it its really cheap to make thats why it sells good

today i think fewer and fewer people sell this stuff
kaya someone already thought of making a franchise out of it
from the streets to the malls
sramble has come a long way

shoe stacks

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 11:16:27 GMT

im soooo tired ive gone shoe shopping today at megamall today
may sale kasi ang sports warehouse
all 70% down on all addidas and nike products

ive never seen and been around so many shoes in my entire life

it was chaotic so many shoes had missing pairs too bad magaganda pa naman
i had a cousin whose a manager so instead of being stuck in the crowd i get to go inside the booths and directly where they store the shoes heheh
mabilis ako makasira ng rubber shoes so kailangan talaga ng mag invest sa matibay na shoes specially when im working out at may kakaibang at kung anoanong kapaguran ang pinapagawa ang personal trainer ko hehe

after hours of going trough shoe boxes and trying out many pairs of shoes
ive ended up choosing addidas breeze 2

its not really stable in the front but as you can guess with the name its keeps your feet cool , it also has good support in the heel, its light bec. its made of some kind of mesh material which allows your feet to breath but with the down side of less support on sides of the feet...but i think ok na nasisira kasi shoes ko sa kaka treadmill so ok na to pang running na din kasi

hay salamat a blog entry not about sex this time

porn addict?

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 07:05:02 GMT

if your a porn addict like me
or just casual porn viewer
this site will help you if you want to learn more on porn addiction

http://www.sexualrecovery.com/pornography-addiction.php

we love porn
but i guess anything in exess is bad
right?

go go porno rangers!

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 09:09:42 GMT

lately dumadami ang contents ng porn stash ko
ive been downloading porn like there's no tommorow, sometimes my PC becomes too saturated with porn that i need to burn videos into DVD's just too save up on disk space, 4 gig worths of porn, hours and hours of unspoiled private fun.

some call it a some sort of perversion but to some its art
to me? well i guess its a mixture of both
but sometimes i wonder am i already addicted to porn?
when can a men know when he has too much...of hardcore goodness?
some say being turned on by waching others do it is somekind of mental case but i think not

sex is an instict, were just physical bodies with physical needs
and like hunger we need do satisfy it
so thats were porn comes along
but i guess porn cant really substitute the real thing
porn can turn you on but you can never really feel skin rubbing against skin breath and sweat (and other bodily fluids)

hay nako i really need to get laid....

me muerto

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 11:50:12 GMT

my pet rabbit died this morning, i suspect diarrhea to be its cause of death i was starting to feed pellets to it yesterday and it seems napadami ng kain
it shoukd have been a slow change of diet,rabbits pa naman have a very sensitve digestive tract and just a simple ailment can prove fatal to these critters

ive becoming more of a petlover these days
ok na ang pets kaysa mga boyfriend ...

ive bought it just a few days ago ive wanted a rabbit...
he died in my hands
its just sad but i guess thats life
but its a shitty way to die though

ironically sabay ang pagkamatay nya with michael jackson
anyway its not like the both of them will rise up from the dead and dance thriller..

independence day

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 12:35:54 GMT

happy independence day to all pinoys out there in this blogosphere, its been 111 years (i guess, you do the math) since someone or was it aguinaldo? declared the independence of our country in the veranda of his house a hundred years ago
its was a big step back then after almost 300 years of hispanic slavery, declaring independence was like giving the whole country its identity separating it from all its past colonial masters
i guess we all need a dose of nationalism these days, the younger folks seem to be mesmerized with anything western of origin (i dont want to sound like im old)
the past is always our operating manual to the future its alwaysed linked, i think we we should always find a way back to our ancestral roots, look back, appreciate and be thankful...

this is a gigantic glutinous flag shaped puto, independence is truly sweet

I like it rough

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 12:33:27 GMT

hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyayari sakin but it seems ive grown afraid of sex...
its been ages since i last got laid
the closest i get to a man is when my personal trainer at the gym,gives me a power stretch
(and yeah he says im quite flexible)
and i still have my love affair with my hands whom are only companions on those long rainy nights
porn playin on the phone under the blankets
hoping that no ones gonna wake up

can porn really ruin your appetite for the real thing?
i guess my daily dose of porn might have side effects kesa naman mag drugs ako diba
its better na porn nalang ang ka adikan ko

ive been getting those indiscriminate offers at planetromeo.com
but ive been turnin them down i think i just have too many issues about getting screwed
i guess evrone has unless your the overly promiscous type

or is it just me because
im such faggot insecure drama queen sigh
whatever...ill just have to wait and see

back to school?

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 10:06:59 GMT

its back to school time
but not for me
no folks im not going to school
i have a leave filed on the nursing college and it seems it will be 3 months more of waiting before i could go back again

it all seems fine on the surface but still... im suffering the trauma of flunking again...thats another year of waiting so thats makes my time spent in college 7 years instead of 4 years
2 years longer than the usual

it seems ive lost track of how many times i messed things up
i still feel like a big failure
its like the world broke down
everybody is changing but it seems im stuck here waiting

waiting for repairs

june june

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 09:59:27 GMT

its been reaallly quite a while since i last updated my blog
and this month of june im back with a vengance

May has been a month of stagnation for me i dunno why but it seems its already the half of the year 2009 and all ive been doing so far is crap

im already in the half of my so called exile from school and time seems always to be fleeting (specialy when your doing nothing)

hopefully i could blog more irrelevant and nonsense things in the from now on
more poems art work violent reactions etc..

labor day

Fri, 01 May 2009 15:25:41 GMT

today is labor day
kakaibang coincedence
kakapanganak ng tita sa ika 12 niynang anak
sinundo namin sya maganak sa PGH

kakaiba sa pgh
diko alam kung ano meron ang lugar na ito
nususuka ako ngayon lang nagyari sakin ito
sanay pa naman ako sa duty sa hospital
totoo pala talaga ang sinasabi nila na iba ang goverment hospital
sa private hospital

siyempre labor day di mawawala ang rally

pilit nilang tinatas ang kanilang mga bandila
oo
karapatan ng mga tao na mag rally pero nakita ko
ang mga kasali sa rally na ito
mga taong kalye mga taong pilit lang sinama

ahyy ewan koba....

Desire and Doom

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 14:27:11 GMT

danton remoto

nagpalusot ako sa magulang instead na mag gym ako pumunta ako dito
masaya
tinalakay ang kasalukuyang trend sa gay lit. sa pinas
pero hindi ata masyado na discuss ang poetry

the filipino gay writer still has to grow
moving from stories about sexual encounters
to more relevant issues
like HIV and pride

well i enjoyed the event
and im planning to go to other talks as well

cheezee

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 11:46:05 GMT

ive just noticed it now but our house is littered
by dairy products...

you can find it stashed in the kitchen and in the dining room
my father is quite an OC.....

monitorlizard

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 11:12:02 GMT

its been few weeks since i last updated
its bec. our monitor broke down

my very smart brother did some cleaning and decided to wipe the monitor with a wet cloth

and since we all know that electrical appliances must not be exposed to any moisture

our freaking monitor just magically wont work
thanks to my bro

so our old bulky high radiation eye aching monitor was replaced with a new LCD monitor

My big fat bitch wedding

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 05:53:30 GMT

Lea bitch just got married yesterday, she really worked her ass off preparing for her wedding cuz she didnt hire a wedding planner of somesort (she really does like doing things on her own and not asking for help thats what i noticed about her) all though i offered her my gay taste expertise but she gracefully refused the help

there were just a few people were invited they didnt even filled the half of the church well maybe they just want to keep the wedding discrete and solemn
unlike the wedding's ive attended before buong barangay ang andun but with lea's weding that was not the case

while i was watching chelsea lately kanina they were talking about the law that allowed gay marriage in Iowa, i think thats wonderfull i guess its the gay marrige issue is taking one state at a time
hopefully dito din sa pinas maging legal ang gay marriage

but why do we need weddings? im talking not only for gay people but for the heterosexuals also? but isnt marriage just a ritual-thing like just to cover a contract signing between two people?, a friend of mine thinks its like s social experiment i guess that experiment didnt work on me

The reception was held in a club house just beside the church
i stuffed myself with food
and went home

i hope lea bitch and papi will be blessed with a happy life as husband and wife

seeing what comes before and telling what happened after

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 01:19:15 GMT

kahapon nang dumating ako sa parlor namin
may nakita akong manghuhula on the go

nagbabasa sya ng palms for 50 bucks

wala naman mawawala i guess
so nagpahula ako

sabi ng kalbong manghuhula
isa daw ankong low profile at humble na tao
mabait pero masamang magalit
ipinanganak na may kasamang swerte
matalino ngunit tamad
blessed with a long life
pero ang signos ko daw ay metal
kaya iwas daw ako sa mga bakal
mayroong cross sa gitna ng palad ko
ibig sabihin daw nun pede akong mangamot

totoo kaya yoon? i think its bullshit diko alam kung maniniwala ako..

sa tingin ko tayo lang ang kayang maghula sa mga kinabukasan natin...

so gay art

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 00:44:18 GMT

lately kakatapos lang i renovate ang kitchen namin
and madaming sobrang paint

kaya ayun ive decided to paint yung wall malapit sa 2nd CR ng bahay namin

my brother only has two words to say to me nung una niyang nakita

"so gay"

queer as folks

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 07:01:05 GMT

been watching Queer as folk for the past few weeks
i just finished season one yesterday

and naisip ko
ganito ba talga ang life style ng mga bakla?

Drug induced,dancing to techno club music while getting their cocks sucked by a total stranger?
one night fucks
steamy bath house orgies

well maybe for some yes
siguro ganun talaga sa america
how will i ever know?
i really dont go out in the gay scene
not been realy a fan of clubs
and the likes

the series tackles many gay issues
issues about acceptance
pride and being yourself

i cant wait na makabili ng season 2
...

gym-ness

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 06:36:54 GMT

Ive been going to the gym since last monday to wednesday
my muscles are aching like hell
my personal trainer is good in forcing people to do what he wants

he's kinda cute

my friends in the gym have been constantly asking me how long i have been gone well i guess it has been a year...
i used to be 180 lbs
now im freaking 240lbs!

i must lose weight!!

bakante

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 09:38:26 GMT

6 na buwan
180 na araw
4320 na oras
259200 na minuto

yan ang oras na uubusin ko, madami ako naiisip
gumuwa ng tula mag workshop
magtrabaho
mag gym
magbantay ng parlor
mag hibernate

pro mabilis ang oras
nauunahan pa ang tao..

sa isang kisap
ubos na ang

259200 na minuto
4320 na oras
180 na araw
6 na buwan
...

poems for a love to hide

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 13:54:13 GMT

shift heart
(alay kay jet)

spell my name
write it down
in deep black ink
so i will have someone to blame
in your death note
so id die happy

im not like those hips
that don't lie
how long will lips
keep dreams inside

i dont have those eyes
i melt when they look at me
empty long gazes
are what you gave me

i made such a lame excuse
trying to figure you out
trying not to keep loose
i still dunno what its about

i know its wrong
just so wrong
to fall away
cause you don't sway
my way

you just simply kill me
because
your a bit
strangely
too thoughtful
painfully
too sweet
that my heart
cant help but beat

things
just feed
my wishful thinking
that it kills me
when you leave me

i hate sraight guys..

for making me fall..

pm shifters

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 15:07:22 GMT

just finished my night duty in the delivery room last week
well it was really tiring, im not used to that kind of schedule
3:00 pm until 12:00
i was sleepy all the time

the hospital really is a different place @ night its like more ...peacefull and yet spooky

and unlike in the morning the hospital cafeteria is closed so we had to bring our own food

and it was a good thing me and my group mates did that
it was way better that buying food from that cafeteria that just recycles food

we did nothing much in our duty we only had like 4 patients so there was really nothing to do
we just exchanged scary stories

i guess i didn't learned that much from this area but still is the whole experience that counts.... i guess? well it helps in some kinda way

next week ill be having my duty on nursery charity
well yet again its another night duty for me

manila ink

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:27:57 GMT

a friend of mine thought me how to do henna tatoo,s recently
ive alwaysed wanted to become a tatoo artist

i guess its one of my dreams heheh

i hope i can get inked for real in the future